Goodbye, Little one...

The thing Im afraid most happened..

I was only 12 when daddy brought him home.

He was with another owner for 2 years before joining this family.

The owner have to move to an apartment and he decided to sell to us.

That moment he stepped in, he was wagging his tail and tongue sticking out.

We remained his name so he wont get confused.

i got soooo clingy to him till i wanted to bring him to school with me !

everytime after school, i'll saw him waiting for me at the door.

i rmb my mom sent me to my sis place to stay for few days.

and on the 2nd day i said i wanted to go home because i miss this little boy so so much.

again when i reach home, he was sitting at the door side waiting :')

 He's always by my side.

When im sad and he heard me cry, he always manage to sit by my side and put his head on me. 

as if he's telling me everything will be fine , not to cry..

When there's rain and thunder, he'll always stick with me. 

And Im in my room sleeping, he'll run and bang my door so he can come in and stick with me.
he's really a good boy.
he listens to every single thing we said.
when we called him sit, he'll sit
when we called him home, he goes inside.
when we called him come, he come.
when we called him gai gai, he'll run.
when we called him a good boy, he'll wag his tail and stick his tongue out looking satisfied. 

 He's always clingy with everyone.

He loves how ppl scratch his chin.

Always love how ppl rub his tummy.

Always love how we comb his fur and clean his ear.
i love massaging for him .
because when i stop, he'll rub his head on my hand as if he's telling me more massage. 

 basicly, we were like growing up together.

i even told him, one day he'll see me marry and accompany my kids too.

I told him even if he grow old, he's always my little boy.

every morning before going to work, without fail I'll tell him '' good bye bobi, i love you.''

 Few months before, this little one gotten so naughty.

He ran out of the house without us realizing what he's trying to do.

He scratch his butt on rough floor !

We nvr realize anything until we saw there's maggots in his wound. 

immediately, we send him to the vet.

He was being hospitalized for 3 days that time. And injection too.

3 days later, we thought he's better.

I bring up my bravery and check on his wound. 

To my surprised, his wound nvr recover at all !

We paid so much money to the vet and the vet just throw my little boy in the dirty cage without doing anything.

So, i decided to do some medications on my own.

I bought medicine and utensils, and my courage , and pull the maggots, one by one out his wound.

NO ONE MESS WITH MY LITTLE BOY !

 i wrap his wound everyday , change his medicine twice a day. 

he recover after that.

his wound, are all closed up !

 he's back to the little happy bobee.

im so happy as well.

Im glad he start making loud noises.

because it means he's healthy enough !
but as time goes by, i know he's getting old..
his fur are all out..
most of it. underneath his stomach is almost bald.

 last few weeks while cleaning his ear, i spot maggots inside again.

inside his ear. means its coming from inside. 

we asked around the vet, no one said he can be save.

he's old. and its affecting him from the inside..

living 11 years of dog age, is beyond a dog age.

they told us to put him to sleep. non of us want to do that.

maybe there's miracle like previously? i decided to do the same to him again.

He was crying in pain for nights.

its been few nights since i stay up till 2-3am just to talk to him and accompany him..

i told him abt every single thing we've been through for the past 9 years.

he looks like he do understand, we gain up all his energy and walk nearer to me and lean his head on my leg.

it hutrs me seeing him crying in pain, but i doesnt want to let him go..

last night after work, i searched for him everywhere. 

no signs of him....

i thought maybe he's healthy again, i walked further and i keep looking for him.

i started to get worried.

no signs of him. i decided to call my parents.

they told me he's gone...

they brought him to buried ...

to be honest, i cant accept the fact that he's gone.

I cried from last night till tonight..

i cried to sleep...
all of us cried.. we know he dont have to suffer anymore..
but, all of us miss him.

i'll never get to pet him anymore.

i'll nvr hear him calling anymore.

i'll never get to scratch his chin anymore..

i'll nvr get to buy his fav snacks anymore..

i'll nvr get to carry him around anymore..

lastly,i'll nvr get to tell him, GOODBYE BOBI, I LOVE YOU...

you'll always be the little boy in my heart..

i'll always love you..